And I sit here,
Alone with my thoughts,
Tears filling my eyes,
Wondering, how the world will transform upon your dhuhoor,
Where will I be once you return?
Will I be by your side, am I truly worthy of this esteemed rank?
Or will my sins act as a barrier which will deprive me of this honour?
How can I turn my thoughts into active preparations for your return?
What role might I be able to play?
And how can I establish a ground to benefit from you?
I question myself and my intentions
in order to bring myself closer to you,
and may these sincere questions
lead me towards your light of guidance.